The highs were high, and the lows were low, complete with screaming matches in the streets that woke his neighbors. I’m a pretty independent, no-bullsh*t type of girl, so I figured I’d be "onto the next one" in no time. You would think I would be guarded after going through what I did.
But, I couldn’t help missing the real, genuine emotions I felt when I was with him.
I was chasing those intense feelings again, and it was heartbreaking being unable to find them, no matter how diligently I looked. I would meet someone new, someone sincere who had my best interest in mind.
I would put all of my energy into convincing myself I saw a future with that person, only to feel more and more discouraged each time I felt nothing at all. I started to have a scary thought: It wasn't because I was guarded, or I hadn’t found the right person; it was because something was wrong with me.
Maybe, I wasn’t meant to feel those kind of emotions again.
Is dating a term that is only reserved for more serious relationships? Is going out on one or two dates considered dating? For me, dating means getting to know someone, going out a few times, talking a lot and hooking up.
Or is dating a term reserved for only very casual relationships? In my opinion, dating can be a little more casual or more serious.Hold on a sec: please don’t jump down my throat because you think I’m making fun of Taylor for the amount of guys she’s dated – I’m not. There’s nothing wrong with a girl who dates around.I don’t care how many guys Taylor dates and neither should anyone else. Here’s why I was left so confused: what is dating to Taylor Swift? But, it’s hard to ignore that tiny feeling you notice growing in a small corner of your heart.I guess you could say I came into the dating game a little late in life.On the contrary, I felt like I was more than ready to love and be loved again. Within weeks, I found myself in a new relationship with a great guy.“That was easy,” I thought to myself. I soon realized that the feelings of “love” I had for this new boy were fading faster than they had developed. This upset me more than I ever would have imagined, and it was frustrating I had no control over it.